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I'm officially stressed out. I thought I was ok and then this week I realized it was too much. Too much work. Too much school. Too much driving. Too much everything.

I started freaking out because I forgot I have to do my bar application this year. I looked at the application and it's so annoying. I have have to report any too consecutive weeks I've spent in any state and get a criminal report from that state. Luckily that is only Ohio and Michigan. I have to report every place I've lived and every place I've worked. I spent an hour just trying to remember the chronology of my life.

I also have to apply for jobs. I'm not behind in this area since I'm not trying to get any high profile jobs, but I still need to start. I need to revise my resume. I need to write cover letters. I need to find places to send applications.

I have 16 hours of classes this semester. I work 20 hours per week. I don't know where all the time goes. I don't watch TV. I don't sleep. But I don't study either. There's not enough time. There's never enough.

I've realized that I need to stay in Toledo more on the weekends. With my birthday, my sisters weddings, parties and a slew of other distractions I'm never here. I leave on Friday afternoon and come back on Sunday night or Monday morning.

Part of my stress comes from an erratic schedule and no "desk". I don't have a place to work at the Firm, I don't have a work space at the Public Defender. I move through a series of classrooms in a day. I haul my stuff everywhere. I have no place to get organized and it's increased my stress.

I think I'm getting sick. I'm so exhausted right now. I don't know how this happened but it has come up suddenly. Now I'm overwhelmed and that's a horrible feeling.

Today my boss at the PD's office tried to talk me into going out. I said no. I know I would be out late and I'm exhausted. I have so much to do tomorrow. I want to get a haircut. I have to renew my license and registration. I need to clean my apartment. I have to get up at 7am. I'd like to take a nap tomorrow afternoon so I'm not exhausted later.

I guess this is enough complaining for one evening....