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Over the past week I have been called the most "even-keeled" or "well-tempered" or "level-headed" person. Assuming this is true I am shocked! SCHOCKED! Mind you, I took these as compliments, but I still find that it doesn't describe me well. I think of myself as an irrational, moody, crazy person. Am I actually a well balanced person? I'd like to think that I am. I'd like to think that I'm a pretty laid-back, well-balanced person. That's what I've tried for.

I think that one test for self-esteem is "would you date yourself?" Upon asking myself this question, I would say "yes". So the new question that arises is "why doesn't everyone else see this?" : )

I think I've finally become Jenn. I'm so harsh on her about not knowing when guys like her. It turns out that it takes someone actually saying "I like you" before I realize this. I know understand the self-doubt/disbelief of the non-arrogant person that makes you wonder what the "signs" really mean. Turns out I'm bad with the gaydar AND knowing if someone likes me. I need a sidekick (or wingman) to elbow me when it's apparent. This is what I do for Jenn. That and tell her if a guy is European or not.

The best advice I've received today is "Don't kill the puppy" which was conveyed to me by Jeff, a la Jason, a la Shelly Button. It's such good advice, even if it's slightly incorrect. This is an allusion to "Of Mice and Men" where that one "challenged" guy (Lenny or Squiggy or something) got excited and killed the puppy. Jeff thinks it was a rabbit. I thought it was a mouse (hence the title) but now I think it was a baby bunny or a kitten. I'm not sure. Either way, Jeff said you shouldn't get too excited too early and "kill the puppy/bunny/kitty/mouse" as we often do in relationships. Does he like me? How much? What should I do? When should I call? Should I be distant? Should I be coy? Should I be naive? Should I be in charge? ARGH!!! It's impossible. I need to just go with the flow and not "kill the bunny". Oddly, this would apply to premature ejaculation issues I would imagine. I think it's important not to "shock the monkey" but you may "rock the casbah" as needed.

In other news, I have compiled the Ultimate Halloween CD. It's FANTASTIC.