I just found out my old college roommate had a kid. That means that all three of my best friends from college now have children. I feel old. I also feel like I'm missing out. I don't want kids, but I want something important in my life. I don't know what the compromise is. I need to figure that out.
Not much else is new with me. I'm starting to realize how bored I am in Toledo. I don't understand why I'm so bored this summer. I wasn't bored during the school year, but now it seems like I have nothing to do after work. I've also discovered I have no friends in Toledo. But I also have no ambition to make friends in Toledo since I'll be leaving in less than a year. Everyone keeps telling me that I should stay in Toledo since I've made such great connections. The problem is that I don't ever want to live here. I have nothing to do. I don't know anyone. I don't really like it here. I'm not staying in Toledo. The question that remains is where do I go?
I could go back to Michigan, but it almost seems to provincial or quotidienne. However, it's probably the place where I know the most people and I would have stuff to do. But would I want to do the same stuff I've done for the last 3, 5, 10 years? I'm not sure. I'd like to move, but I'm afraid I would know no one and I wouldn't have the motivation to meet people (or the time) and so I would be in the same situation as Toledo, but just farther away. On the other hand, I could live in an amazing place and have a great experience.
I thought I was almost through the quarter life crisis. i guess it lasts 10 years. Bitches.
I guess I'm not going to Toronto next weekend. I wanted to go, but my plans fell through. It's probably for the best so I can save my money. I just want to do some fun stuff this summer and it seems like it's going by so quickly.
I am going camping over 4th of July weekend at the Pinery which should be fabulous. I love the Pinery for it's great beaches. And the company shall be excellent. I'm also excited about camping, which seems very out of character for me. Maybe I should join a softball team. Ha! I'm not that crazy.
This Saturday I worked about 6 hours in the morning. It was very annoying and pointless, but luckily I got paid for it, which was good. Then I went to my parents. I met my sister and her fiance in Jackson. We went to the Crazy Cowboy. It was fun and pretty low key. I looked for people from high school, but didn't see anyone. They probably were home with their children.
Oh, but it turns out that there is this tool that I played soccer with in high school, who is now my sister's fiance's best friend. It's funny though because my sister hates him too. She's like "he IS a tool." I don't lie about these things. Her fiance's other best friend used to work at Meijer with me as a bagger. However, he is very nice and not a tool. Yin v. Yang.
Sunday was Father's day. So I hung out with the family. It was quite fun. But tiring. I went Kayaking and played with the dog, and ran after the dog and threw things for the dog and ate alot. I'm still recovering.
