If they follow you, don't look back, like Dylan in the movies

"Yeah you're worth the trouble and you're worth the pain, And you're worth the worry, I would do the same, If we all went back to another time, I will love you over, I will love you" ~ B&S

I am having an uber-stressed moment right now. I'm worrying about money and the past and the future and where I'm going to live and what I'm going to do. I'm just feeling very restless right now also.

I'm worrying about my soon to be astronomic credit card bills, that I have no way of paying off in the future. Logic tells me that I shouldn't worry since there are people who owe a lot more than me and they're doing fine. I just don't want my credit to be destroyed and I don't want to owe so much money. It seems like every step I take, takes me two steps back. I was on my way to paying off my cards and then I had to pay $1200 to get my car fixed. It seems like it will never end. What am I going to do when I owe $100,000 in student loans?

I'm also thinking about moving and where I'm going to live in Toledo. I'm going to a housing thing a week from Saturday. They are supposed to show us places and we're supposed to get to know our classmates. I really want a roommate so I won't have to pay for so much rent. Housing is pretty cheap but it will be even cheaper if I have a roommate. I hope to meet another law student but it seems weird to be like "Hi, want to live with me?" We'll see how it works out.

Also, it turns out now that I'm moving in about a month. Jenn is supposed to move into her place by July 1st. I don't know what she's planning exactly, but that doesn't leave much time. I only have about 40 days. That means I have to start packing fairly soon. It seems so close. I'm excited though because when I move it's only one month left of work!

I think that if the offer still stands, I'm going to live with Jenn for the last month. Since we have conflicting schedules, it shouldn't be a problem. I will just sleep in the living room for about a month. I'll probably go home on the weekends or something. I'm hoping to get an apartment in Toledo for August 1st. That way I'll have about two weeks to get settled before orientation.

This is harder than I thought. Well, my parents told me that they would help me out if I needed it, and I may. I just don't want to burden them, since they are retired and should not have to worry about me. I think I just need to go for a long walk to clear my head. It better not rain.