Nostalgia

I've been thinking a lot about people from my past lately.  I've known a lot of people and I've had a lot of friends but time slowly separates people.  I believe that every relationship is multi-dimensional so when a relationship ends, I know that it was time for it to end.  All relationships are finite and exist in a certain time and place.  They seem to expire and some have closure and some do not.  I guess that's why I don't regret my past friendships even though some ended poorly.  They made me who I am and I can't change it.

I've been thinking about my friend Matt from high school who I haven't seen in 10 years now.  Interestingly, he had a tremendous impact on my life and he probably doesn't know it.  He actually made high school fun for me and the transition from junior high (aka hell) to high school flawless.

I had a dream last night of Mike, my roommate from freshman year at CMU.  I woke up realizing that I really miss him and I hope that he is doing really well.  We were so close, so quickly, and then we drifted apart.

There are also a few relationships that are probably over, but I wish they weren't.  I haven't talked to my friend Leta in several years and even though we were really good friends in high school and college, I'm afraid that relationship is over.  I don't fault anyone when these relationships dissolve, we could both hold on, call more, write more or something but we don't.  I'd rather have a good relationship fade away than end on bad terms.

I'm entering a new phase of my life, which seems like it happens on 4 year cycles (high school, college, post college).  It was almost 4 years ago exactly that I started at EDS, met Jessica, moved to Novi and never looked back.  I didn't leave all of my friends behind, but I was defintely separated from my past life.  Now that I am transitioning into something completely different I have to wonder what will happen.  I say that I'll visit and write and call, but will I?  I will only be an hour drive away, but mentally in another galaxy.  I tell my friends that we'll still be friends but I'm doubtful.  I can already see the separation.  I won't mourn the death of friendships, but instead I'll celebrate them for they have been some of the best of my life.