Here is my horoscope for today: "A certain someone makes you happy. You can't help thinking about the future based on what you're feeling right now. If the other person isn't as sure as you claim to be, don't rush things. Keep your hopes to yourself for the moment."
I don't know who this person is. Maybe I'm ignoring the obvious. Actually, I haven't met anyone new in a long time and no one meets this criteria. Maybe I'll me him/her at 11:59 tonight.
So, I'm totally stressed out right now. I'm just starting to freak out about school. I was working on the financial aid stuff and it's so confusing. Now I don't know if I can fill out the stuff or if I can stop it if I end up not going to UT. So I don't want to fill it out, if I still want to go to Wayne. But I don't know if I'll hear from Wayne or even get in. I sent in the letters to the director of admissions and assistant dean a week ago. I still haven't heard from anyone. I keep returning to the issue of how long I should wait to hear from Wayne. I'm almost ready to give up. I want to move on from this and though it would be disappointing not going to Wayne, it wouldn't really change much. I still have to move. I still have to got to school. I still have to do financial aid. The big difference is that I have to pay $10,000 more a year. I do think that UT is probably a better school, and I think I may fit better there.
To make matters worse I forgot my cell phone today so I can't make the calls that I would like. I don't use my work phone because the evil TLs listen to private calls.
I also have a busy weekend that I'm freaking out about. I have the Friends Finale tonight. New York Minute is tomorrow. Saturday is Sarah and Jackie's Party. Sunday I have to go to Brooklyn to clean out my room and price some stuff for the garage sale. My parents keep pressuring me with all the work this garage sale is but THEY DON'T WORK! And then they are going to Shipshewanna to meet Will Moses and get a print signed. I don't have a problem with this because it is important to them but they need to lay off of me too. I work 8 hours, 1 hour for lunch, 2 hours drive so that's 11 hours I'm not home. Then I have to drive to Brooklyn to do this. It pisses me off that they don't understand that I can't fit their schedule.
Now I'm finding out how little time I have this summer. I have bachelor parties, weddings, and stuff. Now I'm really freaking out about everything and how quickly summer is flying by. I already have all of May planned!
I need to drink some tea and meditate. Ommmmmmmm.....
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