DISENCHANTED

Currently Jenn is on the phone with andy and we've been switching the phone back and forth. We left several voice mails for him where we sang several songs including "Banditos", "Laid" and "Dammit". We are now taunting him about different sexual acts. This is a blatant defense mechanism since we are both utterly disenchanted right now. He is a little on edge because we are taunting him but that's because he's a good sport. Jenn and I are both tipsy on good wine and good Camembert.

Today has been a great frienessance for Jenn and I. After watching the movie Latter Days (see below), I am starting to really believe in miracles. For example, if I hadn't read Jenn's diary today, I wouldn't have called her. If Jenn hadn't had class today and gotten home early, she never would have called me back. If I hadn't called Joe, I never would have gotten Kris's address. If I hadn't spoken to Jenn right before I found Kris's apartment building I would have never have looked for it with her. If I hadn't spoken to Jenn, we wouldn't have been able to stalk Kris again. If we wouldn't have stalked Kris, we wouldn't have had a frienessance. Fate played an amazing role tonight, more than I would have expected.

Jenn and I had a great evening. We went and talked to Kris and his fiancee Kristin. We found Kris's building, walked up to the door and knocked. We could hear Kris walk up to the door, unlock it and then nothing. Reluctantly he unlocked the door, and just laughed. We talked to Kris for about 45 minutes and just caught up on old times. It was really great to see him again, and just talk like old times. Afterwards we went to Borders and Meijer to shop for some last-minute necessary items. We just talked about Andy and love and lust and sex and everything that's on our mind. We've talked about how we don't really ever grow up and how our group keeps shrinking, until there will only be us left. It was really great to have a conversation that really meant something. We haven't had one of those in a long time.

When we came back to the apartment we watched 70s British, drank wine, at cheese and now we are at the present. We called Andy in an attempt to gain some closure. I don't really think that it's there, but there will be. It really is a confusing time for both Jenn and I. We both have so many questions, and so many thoughts running through our heads. Maybe we'll get some answers. I guess it will all be ok, eventually.

Just remember that no matter what happens, no matter what you do, no matter what you become, I will always love you. I will always love you....